Our office was scheduled for a Teambuilding last Thursday-Friday. I packed my things with excitement, I knew there’s a lot in stored for us in our destination. I will try rock-climbing, I will zip line and I will definitely eat, sleep and rest a lot. It’s our time to have fun, my me time. But with a sudden turn of events, my baggage and I took a detour to St. Luke’s Hospital, my Ate had a miscarriage. I was in denial, I just can’t believe it at point blank. I was detoured literally, figuratively.
Truth hurts. The child we were praying for her, for almost 2 years didn’t make it to stay with us. The baby was exactly 16.3 weeks of gestation. It was heart-breaking. I cannot find enough words to describe how I feel for her loss. Her loss was my loss. I knew in my mind that she was my surrogate. I knew I cannot say anything that would ease her pain at that time, I was just there crying with her.
But my Ate was strong as always. She accepted the fate with unquestioning mind and trusting heart. Truly, God will not give a test you cannot endure. I know I will not be in that situation, I will never be able to handle it as she did.
Caelestis could have been my nephew; she could have been my niece. Caelestis is our heavenly angel.
So sorry for your sister's loss. It's actually a family loss, everybody's loss. But maybe God wanted the baby more than you guys did; we can never question His decisions. Naiiyak tuloy ako, nakarelate kasi. Huuuuuugggssssss...
ReplyDeleteKaya nga bilib ako sa inyo dahil kinaya nyo. Only a strong woman with strong faith can surpass an ordeal like this. Kaya nga I knew right there and then na hindi mangyayari sa'kin to eh, hindi ko kasi kakayanin. Nung sa'yo nga last year feeling ko mas depressed ako kesa sa'yo (hehe), lalo na now with my Ate's. Hay sobrang lungkot lang, not a mortal comprehension talaga. We just have to trust God with this.
DeleteThank you.
Awwww, this is sad news. But I'm sure your Ate will recover. My condolences to your family.
DeleteIt is and I'm praying she would. Thanks Nice.
DeleteBtw, glad to know you still visit my blog kahit hindi ka na active on blogging. Added The Nicely Way sa blog roll ko para updated ako sa updates mo. =)
my prayers go to you and your family...
ReplyDeleteThank you.
DeleteI'm sorry for the demise of Celestine. I'm sure He knows best.
ReplyDeleteThank you. Actually the name is for the headstone purposes only, it have to be unisex and something heavenly.
DeleteShe's in good hands now. I know no words can ever console you and all I can give is my prayers to you and your sister's family.
ReplyDeleteMommy Maye
I just can't find any consoling words for my Ate too, thanks for the prayers.
Deleteoh, sad to hear this
ReplyDeletemy prayers to your family
So sad to hear this...but such an apt name. You do have your angel up there
ReplyDeleteMy BIL (the father) choose that name, nobody argued not because he's the father but because its appropriate.
DeleteHow sad! It's wonderful that she has family around her to comfort her.
ReplyDeleteIt's the whole family's loss, after all.
DeleteThis is so heartbreaking. Prayers to you and your family, Ella. My mom also had a miscarriage, but guess what, after two years, she had another child: me. :-)
ReplyDeleteThat's an uplifting/moral boosting story Maan. Thanks =)
DeleteI am sorry to hear what happened to your sister and her baby.
ReplyDeleteThanks Daddy A. =)
DeleteSorry to hear about the sad news to your sister and the baby. Being there in times of need is big help for her.
ReplyDeleteThanks. =)
DeleteSo sorry to hear about your loss...but take heart...cliche as it may sound, everything happens for a reason...and something good always comes out of every trial. Be there for her...she needs that.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear about this sis. Very nice name. Everything happens for a reason. I couldn't say much as well, just to give you a virtual hug and to your sister as well. XOXO!
ReplyDeleteThanks Jhari. Its an appropriate name indeed.
DeleteSorry to hear that ella. It is really troubling to know news like that but be strong for Gods has plan for everyone and for everything.
ReplyDeleteThanks. We just have to trust Him.
DeleteI am sorry to hear about your loss. You are right, your family now has an angel who will look after you for all time!
ReplyDeleteSorry to here about your loss. I experienced the same last year, with only 3 months left I'll be holding her in my arms but sadly my baby didn't survive inside. I lost her.
ReplyDeleteAww, that's too sad. I know you'll never forget your loss but I pray you already accepted it.
DeleteI feel sad about this story :( I had a friend who lost her baby too. She said it is more painful to lose a child than a parent because it's not the natural order of things. But we'll never know what His plans are. He for sure has a good plan for your sister and your family. *hugs*
ReplyDeleteDefinitely true. Losing any loved one is always painful.
Deletei've only seen this post now and i felt so sad reading it. i hope you all have recovered from the pain but i know the memory still remains. God has better plans.
ReplyDelete*Sigh*. She's slowly getting there.
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